Earthquake I hate you!

I hate this earthquake, I hate it with passion. I was just shaken out of bed yet AGAIN. I thought the daily fear was over with, I thought we were past this. Since the 4.7 quake yesterday morning everyone is on edge all over again. I hate this. I hate being tired all day because I’m too scared to sleep. I hate constantly feeling the earth shake even when it’s not. I want this to be over. I need this to be over.

I was not injured in the earthquake, I was not buried for hours waiting for someone to find me, I did not lay next to people taking their last breath as they called for help. I did not experience any of these horrors and I’m this scared. I cannot imagine what they go through every time their beds shake. I can’t imagine how much harder their hearts beat with every quiver.

My reaction changes with each tremor. I’m moving from fear to anger, or somewhere in between. At first the only thing we could feel was terror but now that terror is marinated in pure rage. I am sitting here typing this with a pillow on my head, to protect me just incase my cement ceiling falls on me I suppose, ready to fight. If this earthquake was a person I would punch him right between the eyes.

Earthquake I hate you.

Rachel

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